3 YEARS?!?!

It's almost Brianna's birthday! It's actually really, really weird for me because she's going to turn 3 fucking years old. 3! THREE! As in, it's been 3 years since she was born! As in, I am old as fuck! 3 years older and it seems like it's only been, like, 1. I remember the day they brought her home from the hospital! Hell, I remember when she's was "Kelly's Belly!", a lil' bump, a tummy, some weird (but cute) lump that made Kelly wobble like a penguin up and down the halls! And, well... NOW look! She talks in full sentences, she draws me pictures, she gets up and down from the table herself and tickles me and plays on the big kid playground and it's NOT COOL! Someone, please! Come quick! We need to squeeze this little girl back into a baby being bounced up and down on my thigh! IMMEDIATELY!

Except, I would miss the kid she is today, too. She's such a light in my life, a little treasure, and it's much more convenient now that she can talk and hang out with me. She even leaves me voice mails on my phone! ARGH! Our bond is very strong, I've been taking care of her since she was about 6 months old and since then we've formed a very, very close friendship. I am one of the few people she truly trusts in the world, someone she knows will be there for her when she has an owwie or is having a hard day. I can get her to eat a lunch she doesn't want to eat, take a nap that she's fighting and even force her into ridiculous outfits, such as the one posted above. It's nice to be loved, truly and really loved by someone, especially someone as special and cool as Brianna Jan.

Anyhow, in spirit of her upcoming birthday (I had a shock this morning when I came over to babysit, I came into her room and picked her up and in her sleepy state she whispered, "Today is my Birthday!" and I nearly had a heart attack because I thought I'd forgotten. It turns out, she jumped the gun a little. Her birthday isn't until Monday so PHEW! I'm in the clear! Haha) I decided to do a little balloon hairdo on her. I've had the idea for awhile but Kelly was planning to keep those little balloons as they mean a lot to her for personal reasons. I asked about a year ago if I could have them for MY hair and she said that she wasn't comfortable with letting them go quite yet. But, lo and behold! Today was the day! I saw them sitting out on the coffee table and knew they were up for grabs, they were now Brianna's toys and soon-to-be hair accessories! I'm glad we took these pictures, I explained to Bri that taking pictures is important because someday she'll want to see them just as much as she wants to see pictures of "Baby Bri". I think she finally understands the importance of letting me take pictures of her (a lot of the time she's not in the mood) so, hopefully I'll be able to post more in the future!

Allllllright! I'm done blabbing now. I just wanted to post these and get all my feels out about Brianna getting older and, also, in turn (GULP) me getting older. 23 this year! 


Thanks for reading!
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very "me" things

Occasionally, I go through my computer (and by "occasionally" I mean "rarely-ever-almost-never", if I'm going to be completely honest) and when I do manage to scrounge up the courage it takes to delve into the dark abyss that IS my computer's hard-drive, I come across all kinds of useless photos, gifs, videos and pngs. of just... shit that I saved however long ago for whatever reason thinking that I might use it for so-and-so but never ended up DOING it, or, maybe I did but just never got around to deleting it because even in the virtual world I am THE #1 Queen Packrat of the Century... a lot of it probably got posted on facebook at some point or another, or, perhaps, I just... wanted it. To keep. For an indefinite amount of time and for absolutely nothing. Whatever the reason, every couple of months or so I end up with a CRAPTON of just, well, you guessed it! Crap! USELESS CRAP! A crapton of useless crap, in fact. I've had some of my more technology-friendly friends literally gasp aloud when they catch sight of my desktop, which normally looks equivalently as gross as the floor of my bedroom - a complete and total unorganized mess 99.9% of the time (the other .1% of the time that my desktop is clean can be compared to the kind of tidying-up that includes just, shoving crap in heaps underneath the bed... I end up making one of these babies:

and calling it a day... does anyone else do this? I'm sure I'm not the only one, right? ... right???)

moving on,
I am in desperate need of a clean-out! I guess this is some kind of form of SPRING CLEANING, if you will, just, instead of sweeping and dusting and organizing my closet I will be going through the entirety of my computer (fucking GULP, wish me luck! I MAY NOT COME OUT ALIVE!). I'm going to post some of the random photos and things that I have collected over the months... and months... and months... 

You get the idea. I've decided to title this "very 'ME' things" because a lot of this stuff truly reflects the things that I am interested in as, you know, a person and I think having them all side-by-side on my blog will be pretty neat-o to see. I don't have a LOT of the sources for the photos I'm about to post so, if you see something that's yours or if you know the source of something, please, feel free to leave a comment below so I can fix it! Okay? Cool. Here goes nothin'!

annnnnnnnd I'm done.
 Truthfully, I have a lot more (a lot a lot) but I'm going to spare you all the rest of them... for now. I think I'll continue doing posts like these, though. Going through all of my old stuff and posting it has been a lot of fun for me, and this crap just barely scrapes the surface of all the other junk I have tucked away. I also have a whole other computer I can go through so, I hope you enjoyed this little photodump. It's nothing much but I think it really says a lot about me personality-wise. I hope you're all having a great week (all... 2 of you that read my blog, haha) and please leave comments if you want, I don't bite (hard! ha ha... ha ... ....) !